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Graceless Healing by posingasme - легкомысленный, но ужасно милый сик-фик, пост-9.11 First Born, пайнинг, киссинг, ничего больше.

“Kissing disease.”
Castiel wondered if he had heard right. “Sam…”
“What they called it. Sam was out of school because of…the kissing disease. Think I have that now? Kissing disease?”
“Is there such a thing?” Castiel asked, bewildered. “Sam, do you have a kissing disease? Is it cured by kissing? Or does it make you desire kissing while you are infected?”
Sam was coughing and laughing so hard now that Castiel was terribly alarmed. Surely this was a bad sign, if Sam was dissolving into madness. “No, Cas!”
“I should be willing, in either case. If it helped you.”
The laughter continued another moment, then stopped abruptly as Sam turned to stare up at him. He coughed a little, then spoke in a wheezing voice. “Willing? For what?”
Emotions were a hard thing for an angel who had spent eons suppressing them, who had only very recently allowed himself the freedom to feel any. It was too late to get that discipline back now. He would never be able to shove down the things his heart was churning out. It was just too much, and he had let it run wild for too long.
“Cas? Willing for what?”
“If it would serve to bring you some relief, Sam, I would be willing to kiss you. Or-or to be kissed by you. If it would help.”
Sam gave him a very slow blink. “Cas…it’s caused by kissing. Not cured by it.”
Realization crashed over him now. He stumbled to his feet and whirled to focus on cleaning up the pile of tissues at the trash can, so that he wouldn’t be forced to look Sam in the eyes any longer. “Of course. Because of the transfer of germs. Obviously.” He closed his eyes in a frustrated cringe, with his back to Sam, and tried to will his emotions to settle down so he could deal with them each individually. It didn’t make sense that one could experience more than one emotion at a time. It wasn’t even fair.

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